“A broken heart is my finest julminne”

“A dry spruce, Van Morrison and a broken heart.”

“It is my dearest and best julminne.”

“christmas was my big brother is tired.”

“At the beginning of the 90s worked Mattias often night at the LKAB mine in Kiruna, and the parcel handed over the christmas holidays.”

“in the Middle of Donald Duck, he stretched out his long legs and fell asleep before picadorerna marched out to meet the bull Ferdinand. The rings under his eyes were darker than Spökplumpen.”

“My brother was and is eight years older than me. The only thing we had in common was our parents and last name. I did not know him.”

“my brother’s room with a red carpeted floor and sloping ceiling was my Spotify, and Google”

“But before he moved away from home was his room a treasure trove. When he was not at home, I used to tassa in and eavesdrop on the discs I’ve never heard of, and peeking in the thick books with the name Stephen King on the backs.”

“the Time before the internet was my brother’s room with a red carpeted floor and a sloping ceiling my Spotify and Google – a window to another and more exciting world.”

“I admired my siblings quiet and in the distance, as only a little brother can do. For him, I was probably the most difficult snorunge.”

“I understood that something happened as soon as I walked into the apartment.”

“that is Why I was surprised when he, a few days after christmas called and wanted to talk with me.”

“”you Can come here and help me dress the christmas tree?”the distance was much that was strange about the question. Why he wanted to dress the christmas tree several days after christmas eve? Why couldn’t he do it with his girl?”

“I understood that something happened as soon as I walked into the apartment.”

“my Brother looked sad. The rooms were neat but felt alone. You could almost hear how they last the quarrels echoed between the walls before the door slammed for good.”

“I knew more about the ice cream Igloo than love.”

“Mattias had separated. It was over, and over, and so fresh that our parents didn’t know about it yet.”

“I was fifteen years old. I knew more about the ice cream Igloo than love and relationships and groped for something to say.”

“”Mode?” I asked.”

“”Mmm,” answered my brother.”

“We dressed the christmas tree instead. Nevertheless it must be done sometime before tjugondag Knut. During the time we listened to the cd with Van Morrison, my brother’s new favorite.”

“the Album was completely alien, ”Poetic champions compose”, ”Enlightenment” and ”Hymns to the silence”.”

“It sounded like a man got into a large cathedral with muddy boots, and without changing from his dungarees. It sounded like he sang broken heart. It sounded like the candlelight on the table and poinsettias in the dark window. I had never heard anything more beautiful.”

“To dress the christmas tree became a fixed point in the storm”

“While I hung up the tinsel and glass balls that my brother inherited from our parents, who in turn inherited them from their parents, I tried to memorize the låttitlarna:”

“”Someone like you”, ”Avalon of the heart,” ”Be thou my vision”, ”Why must I always explain?”, ”Hymns to the silence”, ”Green mansions” and the immense ”Carrying a torch”.”

“In retrospect, it is easy to understand what Mattias did. To dress the christmas tree became a fixed point in the storm, a simple act that helped him to clean up the pieces after their relationship.”

“Mattias educated with the time to the teacher and I work in the day as the president. It is almost a klichébild of what the youngest of six kids should do and be: adult, clear and responsible.”

“younger Siblings tend to usually have other privileges, to live among thieves. I cruised into that option and was rockjournalist on Aftonbladet.”

“I finally got a big brother.”

“today, we are the best friends that are available, we will be heard always and the Van Morrison is never far away.”

“Inspired by Uma thurman’s character Andera in the movie ”Beautiful girls” listen Mattias Van Morrison every Sunday at the home of his family, and no other than Van Morrison. Every Sunday, all year round.”

“at the same time he sends pictures of the small things from their daily life: lighting the candles, the fireplace, a glass of amber, an elf.”

“As if to remind me of what our arbetarföräldrar taught us, that there is consolation and life in the insignificant things.”

“personally, I think of the where mellandagen when the two brothers met, and quietly dressed, a gran in Kiruna, sweden, while Van Morrison sang of Avalon.”

“The memory is the christmas for me.”

“I finally got a big brother. “

“1. ”Christmas (baby please come home)” (christmas charity song, Darlene Love)nSom Dave Letterman once said, almost 28 years in a row the day before christmas eve, there will be no christmas without Darlene Love. He was right, of course. Or how, Per Bjurman?”

“2. ”Elvis’ Christmas album” (christmas cd, Elvis Presley)nadd this is the world’s best younger sister of the world’s best rock at the side of Little Richard. Without Elvis and Richard we had been lost in an eternal Ed Sheeran-hell.”

“3. ”Hymns to the silence” (album, Van Morrison)non sole reason: a large and uneven double-disc where the greatest songs are probably forgotten in the day. Which just makes them even more precious and lovable.”