her writer friend is looking almost tenderly at me and says:

”Shall we go and summarize our experiences of this hour, perhaps?”

I hear it coming already here; her overall experience of a lot of points in leadership development and the art to get their employees to grow and learn – but for the sake of it feel criticized or belittled.

”I think the positive reinforcement is an effective way to get ahead and to overcome any unwanted behaviour,” she says.

I am ashamed.

We have just – I for the very first time – played a padelmatch with our tonåringa sons in a now often fully booked hall in Orminge.

”I get a feeling that you have difficult to let go of your vinnarinstinkt”, continues her writer friend, quiet and educational. ”It may possibly cause you to miss out if it actually is fun to play padel. Especially when playing with their children.”

I hear what she says. And realize that I sumpat it. The idea was, of course, that this hour, à 440 kronor, would be fun. Anyway, I have devoted the to to bark and whine at what I perceived as unfocused carelessness from the teenager’s side.

then, sash, I vrålat. A lot of times.

What is wrong with me? You can get a second chance? For it was, after all, very much fun it it to play padel.

Ulrika Village is a reporter at DN. She dreams of becoming a better, more harmonious human being. Is it possible in a city like Stockholm?